Tuesday.
Sunday was awesome. Me and Joann finally got together and talked about Cinema Children things and got more ideas brewing. I am really excited about the things to come with Cinema Church and I can not wait for us to just EXPLODE! I am still get things in line and I def. have to start relying on God so much more. I have been a little down the past week for some reason I “fell off the horse” with the different Bible studies I have been doing and I started slacking on spending time with God. Sometimes I loose focus and look at all the other people at my age running around doing whatever they want whenever they want spending all sorts of money going out getting drunk/high whatever it may be. I see them having “fun” in a sense. That’s when I start comparing. BUT I have realized I don’t need to do all that “cool stuff” to be cool. I don’t need to be stupid and being wild to have a good time. SO now that I am over that little blip in emotion I realized WHY I love God so much and WHY I need to be different why I WANT to be different. It is so much more than a good time. What they have will not last forever and it is very empty and usually ends in heart ache. It is all just a cover up for the way they really feel about themselves. Lonely/shameful/abused/scared…There are so many people out there who go do stupid things just so they can feel something other than their own pain. I am free because I know Jesus is my Lord and my Saviour I know that I am always loved by Him. I just wish they knew how it feels to be loved unconditionally by someone. I have been thinking about things like this. How can I help? How can I show people that life is so much more than they know. This world is DEPRESSING without something to live for. And it breaks my heart.
