Saturday.
Okay, people are crazy thats all I can say. Why do we as people always wait until the last minute! It drives me crazy…yet whenever I am on the other side of it I expect them to be understanding. No wonder we are human. We think that we are the most important thing! I want God to break this in me. Take me apart and start thinking of others!
I got that out haha. Anyways I am excited to say tomorrow will be the first Sunday Aidan will be able to get an actual lesson at Cinema Church! I am so thrilled we got the curriculum in so we can start teaching our little ones the love of God! We are still working towards where we need to be but at least we are moving! I CAN’T WAIT FOR TOMORROW!
Monday.
So I have been really doing a lot of thinking about the Kids ministry lately I really want to work with kids for the rest of my life. I hope this is where God wants me to be. I’ve been thinking so much about it and I would hate to be going somewhere God doesn’t want me to be. I’ve been thinking so much it has been keeping me up at night. I can’t sleep any more it just breaks my heart to think about all these kids who don’t know anything I knew as I was growing up. I sometimes forget how lucky I am to have gone to a Christian school and to go to church. I just don’t want someone to grow up not knowing the love of Christ or someone else in their life. I just want so badly for everyone to know that they are loved in some way or form! I don’t even know where to begin I know what I want to do but I don’t know where to start I need help with this. There are so many things I need to get organized and I need to get figured out before I can be where I need to be with this. I think I have a good start? I don’t know haha ANYONE have any suggestions on how to properly run a kid’s ministry without having a clue as to how to relate to 2 or 3 year olds? I would love some ideas on how to do this haha.
Sunday.
So I don’t know why I didn’t post about this earlier but one day this guy came into my job. He looked at my necklace and said you have a fish on your neck. I said yeah I do. haha he said why do you have it there? My reply was well it is for my faith, I am a christian. WELL I did not realize this would start a huge discussion as to how christians are today and how we need to be in the word everyday because we need to be close to God and how pastors are always about just money and that they are not what they should be. I spoke up at this point and was like oh my pastor is not like that he isn’t at all about just the money. So he asked me his name and what church I go to. I explained I was a part of a church plant and that my pastors name was Mike. He asked me the last name so I said Larkin. He persisted that he knew him and his whole family. I was like you probably don’t know him. “Oh yeah he lives in haddam doesn’t he. I know mike really well his dad is so-and-so.” (me) “Um I really don’t think you know him.” (him) “Oh yeah I know him he has a brother, yeah I know him.” (me) ” haha nope not the right guy” This went on for a little bit he didn’t believe me. But a lady came up to me after she heard the whole conversation and said just so you know you handled that very well. I was like oh okay. It was just funny because we as Christ followers have made such a name for ourselves. I just want people to know that it is not like that at all! Yes, we love God but that does not mean we are hungry for just your money and don’t want you to know who He really is. It just made me laugh.. “Oh yeah I know him yeah I know him really well.” UHH NOPE! Mike you’re awesome for not being the type of pastor he was talking about! I KNOW I can speak on behalf of everyone I know WE LOVE YOU!
Tuesday.
As I sit here and think of everything. I think of how little I am and how I get in my own way ALL the time. I want so badly to just say God here I have nothing do with it you may. I have decided to take the higher road with God I am going to devote everything I have to Him and I am tired of getting in my own way. I am done with this life I am giving it to Him ALL to HIM! I am just so exhausted from my mistakes. Whenever I mess up is just me telling myself you are can’t do it alone. You can’t do this alone you need me. So God here is am take my brokenness, my unworthy soul, my everything, and use me how you will. I am yours God I am forever yours I am tired of living on my own and putting you to the wayside. I want so badly to do what you want me to. I am done with putting everything before you. I am done with guys, with anything that doesn’t have you in it. Consume me everything of you take me take everything in me Lord. TAKE ME. USE ME. SO if you are a guy and want to be with me. HA GOOD LUCK! never going to happen! You’ll have to go through God and He is not so willing to give me up to just any one. Friends? Yes, I have many, but will I choose them wisely you better believe I will. So if you are willing to put up with the fact I love God with every ounce and I am not willing to compromise any more then you will stay if not you can always find someone else who will feel the same as you do. God, YOU are ALL I need and ALL I want! forever!
