Sunday.
So I started reading more books. They have been changing my mind on so many things opening my soul.. They have been touching me in so many different ways. I am trying to get closer to God. Everything just seems so much easier with Him in my life. I love more I feel more. I just don’t know how to explain it. It feel so amazing. God YOU are amazing. YOU are Love. I started reading “The Shack” it is a book where a guy goes through immense pain and he is unable to let go and blames God. So many times we blame God for things. But he goes through life with this “great sadness” on his shoulders and he is unable to release that “great sadness” until he goes to the shack of pain, his pain. God meets him there. God meets us in our pain. He can’t take the pain we go through away, but he meets us in it and He just wants to heal us so badly. It is just like if you are a parent you want to take your child’s pain away, but you can’t because it is their pain, but what do you do? You sit there with them and you help them through their pain you in a sense are healing them from their pain. That is how God is with us He wants to restore us in our relationship with Him and He wants to just wrap His loving arms around us when we are going through pain and just heal us. He loves us all and wants all of us to be restored in Him! He wants to laugh with us, cry with us, smile with us, and so much more. He wants to be our best friends, our everything! That is what I want Him to be in my life. I want to wake up to Him, fall asleep to Him and just be able to be filled with so much joy because He is the light inside of me just tickling my inner being. God is just full of so much love how can we not love Him? How can we not want to be so close to Him? I don’t even know. Life is dull and boring with out Him. How can we look at the ocean the huge ocean without seeing His eyes through every single glisten it makes… It just drives me crazy to think about.. AHHHH. I just want to smile forever!
