What happened today is…

Key Verse: John 4:26, “Jesus said to her, ‘I who speak to you am He.’”

Reflection: Wow, if I was her I would be speechless. Imagine just sitting there being amazed already by the fact a Jewish man was talking to you. Then to find out that this very man was Jesus Christ Himself. That would be so awesome to just see. I am kind of jealous of all the people who got to live with Jesus while He was on this earth. This just goes to show that one day you may just be having an ordinary day and BAM something extraordinary happens. She could have looked at him and said, yeah okay you are the Messiah get real, but no she believed Him she listened. I feel I need to listen more when God is standing right infront of my face saying I am He. I am talking to you, listen to me.

Prayer: I pray that we will all just listen. Listen to God and what He is telling us and when He says He is God, He is the Messiah, the Christ that we will learn to be like okay God I will listen to you. I will just sit and listen to you as the Samaritan women did. That we all will sit and just listen and marvel.

First off I must say I am loving life lately. I can see everything with a more joyful heart and I am trying not to get frustrated as much. I am letting go of things I can not control and I am trying to love life more.

Key verse: John 3:8, “The wind blows where it wishes, and you hear the sound of it, but cannot tell where it comes from and where it goes. So is everyone who is born of the Spirit.”

Reflection: I love just listening to to sound of the wind and I love when the wind just brushes my face. I always feel like God is wrapping His arms around me and running His fingers through my hair. The wind is very much like God in a way it is very powerful, but can be very gentle. A strong powerful wind can cause a tree to fall over or a car to drift while driving, but the same wind can just brush through the grass and tickle someone’s hairs on the backs of their necks. The wind is a beautiful reminder that God is a strong powerful yet gentle and kind God. I like to be reminded that everyday when I mess up. There is also something that puzzles me about this verse. It says that anyone who is born of the Spirit is also like this. Does that mean that we are suppose to be like the wind? Go places and be unnoticed, but still let people know someone was there. Should we leave people questioning about who it was and why we were like that? If anyone can clearly explain that would be lovely.

Prayer: God I am not sure what I should be praying. You know my heart Lord. I wish I was more like the wind though. I wish I could be as quiet as a whisper, but as strong as you want me to be Lord. I pray that whoever reads this will understand it more clearly than I did. Amen. Have a good week.

Key verse: John 2:23-25, “Now when He was in Jerusalem at the Passover, during the feast, many believed in His name when they saw the signs which He did. But Jesus did not commit Himself to them, because He knew all men and had no need that anyone should testify of man, for He knew what was in man.”

Reflection: In a different version of the Bible in verse 25 it says “He did not need man’s testimony about man”. God does not need us, we need Him. God is going to do what has to be done with or without us. We have to be willing to be used by Him. Jesus knew the people’s hearts and knew why they believed in Him and whether or not it was real. Jesus knows our motives and our hearts. Kind of scary thinking about the most powerful being knowing everything about us and we still can not comprehend half of how powerful He is. God has the power to kill us in one instant but chooses not to, instead He sent His son to die for us and to live on this wicked world with people who killed Him and treated Him with anything but reverence. He sent His some to love us and give us eternal life forever. God knows our hearts and motives no matter what. Just remember God can see everything we do, hear everything we say, and knows everything we think. God knows our hearts.

Prayer: My prayer for today is that people realize how powerful, how merciful, how loving, how knowing and how awesome you are. I wish people could see how amazing you are and how you know our hearts either way and you are the only one who knows us completely and will never forsake us even when everyone else has. I pray that everyone will know your name!

Key Verse: John 1:4-5 “In Him was life, and the life was the light of men. And the light shines in the darkness, and the darkness did not comprehend it.”

Reflection: In Jesus there is life and He was also known as the Light of the world, but Christ encourages us to be lights among the darkness and to show the world the light within us and how it changed our lives. Through Christ is life, life eternal, who would not want that? Everyone wants to live forever or to live longer. We have the answer they are craving for. We should be small lights in the darkness and show people how they can have life eternally. When one is not in darkness they can not see what is in front of them, not until they turn on a light then they can truly see everything within the darkness. Let’s turn the light on in the darkness!

Prayer: I pray that I am more of a light in the darkness and that I will be able to light other people so they can too be lights among the darkness. I also pray that this challenges others to do the same thing. Also that we can show them to the one and only true light, Jesus. Amen.

So I decided that I am going to save up for a condo. I don’t know how long or how much it will cost, but I am going to do it. I am learning to be patient in everything. I am also seeing that I need to not panic over everything. Besides what is the point of freaking out when God’s got my back? there is no point when He will always provide for me no matter what. He would never let it get too bad. So yeah I am going to get a condo and I will charge my roommate rent and that way I can pay for utilities. It is going to be awesome and then I can actually be independent and stop depending on my mom for everything after all she needs a break from me . So mom I will try and get out of your hair.

I worked everyday this week except for sunday. So I am quite tired after waking up at 6 everyday. Good thing tomorrow I get my day off Many things have been going on this week, for instance. Yesterday Sarrette did the message for LP. The message was really good, it was about how we need to rely on God no matter what comes our way and that He has our back. That is really comforting to know especially with people these days. We all lie, cheat, and steal and feel no remorse for it whatsoever.

I have been seeing God work in my life so much lately and I love it. Letting God take full control of my life is not an easy thing whatsoever. I just want to live and be done with it, but what kind of a life is that? God put us here for a reason we were made in His image and to live for him. I am going to be learning alot about the book of John I am very excited. I did it once before when I was in 10th grade. I can see God obviously wants me to learn something from this book if He is going to present these Bible study things in my lap all at the same time. Maybe I missed something the last time. God will never stop teaching anyone there is always something you can learn, because no one is perfect.

When I was reading John 7, I came across this one verse in particular. John 7:24, “Do not judge according to appearance, but judge with righteous judgement.” At first I was like what does it mean to judge with righteous judgement and then I thought. God wants us to not look at what is on the outward appearance, but look at the heart like He does. Give everyone a chance let them show you their hearts. Don’t judge anyone no matter what. Love them for who they are. But also be careful because you do not want to stumble. Act like Jesus as He did towards the Pharisees. He loved them, but He did not judge them on what they appeared to be, but what they actually were.

So it has been pretty hectic lately. Work has been busier because they cut so many people’s hour from the lack of customers making work harder to do when it does actually pick up in the day. me and one of my co-workers bought a hamster in hopes of mating him with my girl hamster (lola) we named him Nibbles Winslo II. That name took so long to figure out. I wanted to name him Hamilton but that simply would not do. Oh well. I have still been trying to read through the Psalms, I have been doing this for a year now. I am not sure why I feel it is so hard to do. I heard from the bank about another job opening in East Hampton I believe. Hopefully I will get the job there. If so it will be a full time position.

There was a passage in Psalms that really captivated me this week. It was Psalm 71:19-21.

“Your righteousness reaches to the skies, O God, you who have done great things. Who, O God is like you? Though you have made me see troubles, many and bitter, you will restore my life again; from the depths of the earth you will bring me up. You will increase my honor and comfort me once again.”

The passage is just so awesome to be because I see that no matter what I may go through I know God will always be there to comfort me. David was the one that wrote part of the Psalms and he went through alot of trials and alot of persecution and had to face many hardships. If he knows that God will comfort him why would I have to worry about God comforting me and what I go through my troubles are nothing compared to anything he went through. I know God will always be by my side and will never let me go through something that was too much for me to handle.

On that note I must be leaving I am going over to Rachel’s. Have a blessed week

I have the tendency to over think things alot. I read way too much into what someone says and think the worst in it. I know this is not always the wisest thing to do, it is actually a really stupid way to react and it gets me into alot of trouble most of the time. When I do this I make people mad because it frustrates them and they say I am putting words into their mouth.

When I read that passage in John last week I just now fully understood how it applies to my life. I realized I was not treating someone in the love of Christ solely because I did not like her. I had no REAL reason not to like her at all. She, in my head, stole the guy that I liked. This was stupid. I was being immature and not loving her the way that Christ would want me to love her. So I did what I do best I apologized, (I don’t do that too well. Admit when I am wrong, and then apologize.) I mean she lives in a different state so she would never know if I cared or not but I could not shake the feeling of doing her wrongly. It did not make one difference in her life if I apologized or not, but it did make a huge difference in my life. It made me realize I need to love without judgement. Yes, it may have hurt but I needed to not put the blame on her when she did nothing wrong.

So besides that going on I woke up this morning at 5:45ish I would say it was with a bloody nose. I caught it before it got all over everything, but I went through about 5 tissues before it stopped. Surprisingly I was happy the rest of the day and work wasn’t bad at all. Twas strange to not care if I stayed longer at work or not. Oh well need to get ready for LP and the girl’s sleep over after. Excited about tonight not the morning when I need to work with no sleep I am guessing. May God bless you all!

Today was just like any other day. Nothing extraordinary happened. I woke up and went to work. I was 15 minutes late again. (which I hate, because I hate being late) Yesterday though I went to work, I left 30 minutes later than I was scheduled. (not complaining though, hey more hours more money.) I baby-sat Cameron, she was amazing as always. I love watching her, it is amazing to she her get more and more of an understanding of the world she has entered into. I love watching someone’s mind so pure and innocent grow. Makes me want to just protect every young person’s mind and to make them never fully understand the world they were born into. The world that lets people down everyday. I wish everyone could stay so innocent as when they were first developing.  Now that my rant is over haha. Small groups was good yesterday. Young minds just so eager to learn about God makes me smile. Well movie time

Well it was my first day back at work after having 4 days off. I got really dizzy and had to go into the back to sit down. My mother thinks I almost fainted. I was better after I ate some food and drank some water.

I was reading my “homework” for small groups while I was on break and I read about Jesus talking to the Samaritan women at the well and it really encouraged me to read that Jesus did not care what race or gender she was. Back when Jesus was alive Jews did not speak to Samaritans let alone Samaritan women. The Samaritans were seen as the most unclean people because they were a mixture between the Jews and the Gentiles. Women were just seen as insignificant, so for Jesus to talk to a Samaritan women, him being a Jewish mad, was a big deal. It opened my eyes and taught me to not be judgmental and to talk to everyone no matter if they are a guy or a girl. So yeah that is what I learned.  On another note. Today at work was not too busy I tried to make the best out of it even though I was so tired and did not feel like working at all. I still don’t know what is going on for tonight and I do hope I am not getting sick. That would be bad.

   So my brother decided to accidentally  shatter the slider door glass with a bebe gun. Big trouble.